It has been an interesting week. I have learned that a common misconception people have about my walk with God is that it’s an easy one. Au contraire, it’s not a walk in the park. I mean it’s not hard and I don’t have to force myself to do it everyday, I love Jesus! I love Him. It’s just that it’s a relationship: it has ups and downs… the thing with being in a relationship with the perfect God is that when there’s an argument it’s always your fault.. so sometimes you begin to wonder why you’re even in this relationship. You just feel like you can’t keep up with all of His perfection. It’s just too much! At least that’s what I say sometimes. And then I am kind of impatient so I get upset with Him everytime I don’t get what I ask for when I ask for it: or when I think He’s taking too long. It frustrates me! And then after some time, I come to a point of realization, by the help of my main man, the Holy Spirit, that the whole situation is actually working out for my good and working together to give me the best possible outcome. Then repeat cycle begins. My teary-eyed self or the wailing one (depending on the occasion), begins to apologize because I’ve done it again. Will He forgive me this time? How do I just do the same thing over and over again? Ugh!
The most astounding thing is He’s saying “I love you” all through my shenanigans and malarkey. Even His anger towards me is for my own good. Like what?
So, the moral of my story is I fall. Over and over again. But he is loving away all my flaws and quirks so that the beautiful parts of me can blossom and outshine the not-so-beautiful parts. Then there’s the argument that all of me is beautiful, but that’s a story for another day.
In closing I want to share a scripture that always brings me back.
“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.”
Matthew 6:33 NLT
I hope you have a bright day today because someone is waiting for your shining light to illuminate their path.